Where to be?

I've been finding it hard to just be lately. When I'm with Lily, I feel like I should be with Jude. When I'm with Jude I feel like I should be with Lily. When I'm with neither of them I feel like I should be with Daniel or both of my kids somehow. Whew. It's exhausting. I have to tell myself that where ever I'm at is ok and to enjoy the moment.

Regarding Lily - she weighed - get this folks - 800 grams last night when I went to hold her. That's 1 lb. 12 oz! We were very happy!